26 May 2019

Typical Visit to the Cystic Fibrosis Clinic


Madeline is supposed to visit her care team at the CF clinic every three months. This is standard care for people with cystic fibrosis and is a critical part of making sure that her health stays on track. One of these four visits each year is known as an "annual visit" and includes additional testing: an oral glucose tolerance test, basic labs to check her vitamin levels, and a chest x-ray. Last summer we took some pictures throughout the day so we could capture what a typical annual visit is like for Madeline these days.

When a clinic day comes along, my kind father-in-law usually comes up to watch the little ones so I can just focus on Madeline for the day. I'll let a baby tag along for the first year or so and it's no big deal, but there comes a day when it's too distracting. Last month Evan proved that he is now far too disruptive, so I'm officially benching him for future visits. Anyway, we drive to the Children's Hospital of Philadelphia (CHOP), which is 1-1.5 hours away depending on traffic, for Madeline's clinic visits. We are gone all day long, and it can feel like a really long day! It's nice to spend some time together, though, and we always have a good time hanging out.

An annual visit begins with an oral glucose tolerance test (OGTT), which is done to see if Madeline has developed CF-related diabetes (CFRD). About 15-20 percent of teens and 35 percent of adults with CF develop CFRD, so it's important to stay on top of this (you can read more about CFRD here). This screening was added to our routine when Madeline turned eight, so this summer will be her third glucose test. The OGTT starts bright and early because she has to fast beforehand. We arrive at the lab at 8:00 and they draw her blood before sending us upstairs for the glucose drink. She gets her blood drawn again at the one-hour mark and then at the two-hour mark. They also go ahead and draw her annual labs that check vitamin levels and other things to make sure she is healthy.


We have to stick around the general area during her glucose test, so we chat, read books, and maybe play a game. She also gets a chest x-ray done during this time. The x-ray is done once every year to check the health of her lungs and see if lung damage has progressed over the year. The x-ray is easy to do, but I always dislike this part because while her x-ray looks good, there are always little signs of CF doing its thing. This part of the visit is so much nicer now that Madeline is older and doesn't require any wrangling.


Last summer we had a cute little baby to keep us company. He was so small! You might notice that Madeline is wearing a mask in some of these pictures. She has to wear a mask if she's in any open areas of the hospital, including all halls and waiting rooms. This is really important for infection control and to reduce the risk of cross-infection of people with CF. The rooms are fully cleaned after each patient, and all of the doctors and nurses wear disposable gowns and gloves when they come in. It's serious business. The patients who have the most dangerous bacteria have special clinic days so that other patients have even less risk of being exposed to them. When Madeline was a baby, they always had her as the first patient of the day so the clinic would be as clean as possible.


By the end of all this waiting and drawing of blood, it's late morning and Madeline is absolutely ravenous! As soon as the glucose test is over, she can eat a quick bite and then it's on to the main portion of the visit. From this point on, everything that happens is done at each clinic visit, not just the annual one. First a nurse gets her height and weight.


Then the nurse checks her blood pressure and oxygen saturation levels. She also gets a throat swab done every time. This swab is cultured to check for any bacteria growing in her lungs. It takes about a week to get the results back, and the clinic uses the results to know if they need to treat any particular bacteria with antibiotics to prevent lung damage.


After all the vitals are done, Madeline does a Pulmonary Function Test (PFT) to test her lung function. It's a little complicated to explain, but basically she blows into a tube and it measures her lung volume.


After that, we go back to the room and meet with Madeline's CF team. It includes her pulmonologist (main doctor), a nurse, a dietitian, a social worker, a physical therapist, and sometimes a pharmacist or resident. We manage to underplay CF in our day-to-day life, but when you look around and realize that six highly educated and well-paid adults are gathered in a room to discuss every aspect of your daughter's health, well, it's clear that CF is a pretty big deal.

The nurse goes over Madeline's medications and makes sure that their list is current. One of my primary goals as a mom is to make sure that Madeline is prepared to take charge of her own CF care, so for the past few years she has gone with a checklist so she can do this part with the nurse herself. Then the nurse and/or doctor ask all kinds of questions about her health, including recent illnesses or various issues regarding her gut and lung health. We discuss her growth and appetite and any eating concerns, with the dietitian taking the lead as appropriate. Often this becomes a brainstorming session to see how we can maximize her calorie intake. We talk about any necessary adjustments to her enzyme dosage, whether she has had belly pain or headaches, wheezing, shortness of breath, etc. We discuss her activity level and what kinds of physical activities she is currently involved in.

The doctor listens to Madeline's lungs and gives her a complete check-up. We discuss her x-rays, PFT results, glucose results, and any adjustments to medication. The social worker will often check with us to see if we need any help with school or insurance issues or anything else. The physical therapist spends some time doing various exercises with Madeline and teaching her proper techniques for coughing or doing her breathing treatments. After that, we make sure we're all on the same page for a treatment plan, and then off we go. We pretty much always eat somewhere before heading back home. We used to always go to the cafeteria, but lately Madeline has wanted to check out some other places in the area, which is fun.


We usually get home late afternoon, where my angel father-in-law often has dinner waiting for us, and then we wait another three months before doing it all again! I always have visions of doing some fun things in Philadelphia before going home, but the truth is that we're both usually pretty wiped out by the end of the day! So grateful that we live near one of the best pediatric CF clinics in the entire country. I love Madeline's doctor and have full confidence in the care she receives there.

28 April 2019

2018 Reading

Well, well, well. Happy end of April to you; a fitting time to finally post my 2018 reading list! (You can find my lists for previous years here: 201720162015201420132012. ) Not that anyone except my sister has been waiting for it, but I've been surprised by how much I like having a record of what I've read over the years so I wanted to make sure I finished this before the year is over.

Top Seven Recommendations

  • Educated, by Tara Westover
  • The Terrible Two, by Mac Barnett & Jory John
  • Britt-Marie Was Here, by Fredrik Backman
  • The Wild Robot Returns, by Peter Brown
  • The Secret Keepers, by Trenton Lee Stewart
  • Saints: The Standard of Truth 1815-1846
  • The Way of Kings, by Brandon Sanderson

Fiction
  • Where'd You Go, Bernadette, by Maria Semple (It has been a while, but I think I liked this one but didn't love it.)
  • With Love From the Inside, by Angela Pisel (It has unfortunately been too long since I read this to say much, but I'm pretty sure it was really great.)
  • A Man Called Ove, by Fredrik Backman (At first I wasn't sure what all the hype was about, because I found it very slow-paced and a little difficult to get into. And then I really liked it.)
  • My Grandmother Asked Me to Tell You She's Sorry, by Fredrik Backman (Good read.)
  • Britt-Marie Was Here, by Fredrik Backman (This is a sequel to Grandmother and narrows in on one character, and I completely loved this one. I think you have to read the other one first to fully appreciate it though.)
  • Beartown, by Fredrik Backman (Fair warning that this has a lot of bad language, but WOW.)
  • Caroline: Little House, Revisited, by Sarah Miller (This is fiction, but based on Little House on the Prairie and told from the mother's perspective. I liked it a lot.)
  • September 11: An Oral History, by Dean E. Murphy (So sad but so interesting. I was really glad I read it.)
  • The Art of Racing in the Rain, by Garth Stein (Maybe a little boring? I was sick; I can't say for sure.)
  • Murder on the Orient Express, by Agatha Christie (Exactly what you would expect from an Agatha Christie novel.)
  • To Kill a Mockingbird, by Harper Lee (I absolutely LOVED reading this one again as an adult. If you only read it in a class years ago, it's worth reading with a new perspective. So good.)
  • Jacob T. Marley, by R. William Bennett (Fun twist on A Christmas Carol. Really enjoyed.)
  • The Handmaid's Tale, by Margaret Atwood (This is really, really rough stuff. Important but I wouldn't recommend it unilaterally. Not sure if I'm glad I read it.)
  • Girl on the Train, by Paula Hawkins (Absolutely HATED this book. Don't bother.)
  • What Alice Forgot, by Liane Moriarty (Okay, this isn't for everyone, but I liked it! It had a surprisingly profound impact on me and the way I view my relationships with others.)
  • The Alice Network, by Kate Quinn (WWII fiction. This was good but also gritty.)
  • The Way of Kings, by Brandon Sanderson (If you really like fantasy, this book is amazing. The world-building is absolutely incredible. It took a bit for my brain to get into that world, but once I did, I really loved it. Sequels are also wonderful. If you don't like fantasy, well, this book is obviously not for you.)
  • Words of Radiance, by Brandon Sanderson (Sequel to previous book.)
  • Oathbringer, by Brandon Sanderson (Sequel to previous book.)
  • Edgedancer, by Brandon Sanderson (Companion novella to previous books.)
  • Mistborn, by Brandon Sanderson (A different series that is also awesome if you like fantasy.) 
  • A Dangerous Place, by Jacqueline Winspear (Maisie Dobbs series; I enjoy these. If you read the first couple you'll know if it's your thing to get this deep into the series; ha.)
  • Journey to Munich, by Jacqueline Winspear (Maisie Dobbs series)
  • To Die but Once, by Jacqueline Winspear (Maisie Dobbs series)
  • The Weed that Strings the Hangman's Bag, by Alan Bradley (Part of the Flavia de Luce books--you've got to read the others first, but I love them. The series has nice development, so although there's always a crime to solve, there's a lot of other stuff going on as well.)


Nonfiction
  • Educated, by Tara Westover (Absolutely loved this one. Read it! So much to discuss.)
  • Saints: The Standard of Truth 1815-1846 (A new narrative history of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints--this is so, so, so good. Meticulously researched, written, and edited and absolutely engaging. You can find it for free to read online here or for free as a PDF or e-book download here.)
  • Without You, There Is No Us, by Suki Kim (Another book about North Korea. This one didn't grab me as much as others, but it was still an interesting slice of North Korean life. I liked it.)
  • The Actor's Life: A Survival Guide, by Jenna Fischer (I have no acting aspirations, but it was still super interesting to read all this behind-the-scenes stuff! Well written and fun.)
  • Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me?, by Mindy Kaling (This was an enjoyable read, but I read it in the hospital and honestly don't remember much.) 
  • A Lion and a Lamb, by Rand H. Packer (About a missionary couple called to re-establish The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Palmyra, New York, in the early 1900s. Not the best writing, but wow, what an interesting aspect of Church history that I didn't know anything about!)
  • One Light Still Shines, by Marie Monville (Written by the widow of the Amish school shooter from several years ago. Not sure if I would recommend it. Very interesting; I just honestly got tired of the narrator and the writing by the middle of the book.)


Middle Grade
  • The Terrible Two, by Mac Barnett & Jory John (READ IT! It's brilliant and funny and by the time you get through with the whole series, also an incredible story about friendship.)
  • The Wild Robot Returns, by Peter Brown (So, so, good! Oh, it's good. It's a sequel so read the other one first!)
  • The Dark Deep, by Ally Condie & Brendan Reichs (Really great book!)
  • Where the Mountain Meets the Moon, by Grace Lin (Beautiful book! Loved it.)
  • Where the Watermelons Grow, by Cindy Baldwin (Also a wonderful book!)
  • Five Kingdoms: Time Jumpers, by Brandon Mull (Last in a series--I like this one!)
  • Dragonwatch, by Brandon Mull (A new series but a follow-up to Fablehaven--if you like that series you'll love this one too.)
  • Beyonders: A World Without Heroes, by Brandon Mull (Fabulous!)
  • Beyonders 2: Seeds of Rebellion, by Brandon Mull (Same.)
  • Beyonders 3: Chasing the Prophecy, by Brandon Mull (Same.)
  • The Candy Shop War, by Brandon Mull (You can tell I'm a mom because I wanted to shake the kids in this book. Ha. It's a really fun read. Not as high quality as other series but fun.) 
  • The Candy Shop War: Arcade Catastrophe, Brandon Mull (Same.)
  • Alcatraz vs. the Evil Librarian, by Brandon Sanderson (I loved Sanderson's books for adults, but this was sort of meh for me. But Madeline loved it and read the whole series, so there's that.)
  • The Mysterious Benedict Society, by Trenton Lee Stewart (This whole series is so, so great! Love it!)
  • The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Perilous Journey, by Trenton Lee Stewart (Love!)
  • The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Prisoner's Dilemma, by Trenton Lee Stewart (Love!)
  • The Extraordinary Education of Nicholas Benedict, by Trenton Lee Stewart (This one is a prequel to the others and also really great.)
  • The Secret Keepers, by Trenton Lee Stewart (This book is awesome! It's a stand-alone novel, not at all related to the Benedict books, and it was simply wonderful.)

YA
  • The Unexpected Everything, by Morgan Matson (Loved this one!)
  • Since You've Been Gone, by Morgan Matson (Loved this one too.)
  • The Hate U Give, by Angie Thomas (This book is incredible and also super important given the race issues going on these days. The language is so so bad that I couldn't read parts of it though. I am bummed about that because otherwise I would say everyone should read it.)
  • Once and For All, by Sarah Dessen (I liked this one.)
  • The Seventh Most Important Thing, by Shelley Pearsall (Really good.)

26 November 2018

My Dad Comes to Town


Living far away from my family is a bummer in a lot of ways, and I miss out on a lot of fun things. One thing that has been really great, though, is that my parents are both very good at coming to visit me, and I live in a very interesting place, and they are always up for an adventure. When they come, we get to spend a lot of really high quality time together and see some amazing things.

My dad was here a couple of weeks ago, and it was so great as always. Hazel was very excited to pick "Gwampa!" up from the airport in Baltimore. We took him over to Ft. McHenry, where the "Star-Spangled Banner" was written. It was a gorgeous fall day and perfect for exploring the fort. Hazel refused to wear her own shoes that day and instead tried to clomp around in a pair of Violet's shoes . . . surprisingly, it wasn't very comfortable. Didn't cramp her style though.


The star event of the trip was a BYU football game happening up in Boston. We all drove up for the game and it was a blast! I love BYU football with my whole heart, and I hadn't been to a game in positively ages. Seriously so great to cheer for the Cougars and to teach my kids a little more about football. We had super good seats, so it was easy for them to see the action on the field--and of course Grandpa was there to answer all their questions. Such a great time.

The day we drove up, we made a quick stop at a rainy Connecticut beach just to catch a glimpse of the ocean! Then there was just enough time to grab some dinner and let the kids go swimming at the hotel. They were beyond excited to sleep in a hotel again, so the excitement level that evening was off the charts. I don't love putting them all to sleep in the same room quite as much as they do, but it all worked out thanks to Grandpa having a room across the hall for spillover.


The next morning we went to a tailgate party and the kids got to meet Cosmo and get BYU tattoos.


I was trying REALLY hard to keep this little Hazel lady happy, but it was pretty windy and cold for a little girl who would only wear crocs and didn't want to put on a coat and was really sleep deprived. Someday she will catch the glory of BYU football.


My boys.


Evan was so adorable and sweet. I was impressed that he actually snuggled in and took two naps on my lap, because it's really hard to get him to sleep when I'm holding him now! Love this sweet little BYU baby.


After the game, we met up with my dear friend Maria and her family for dinner. We have been friends since we were eight and I hadn't seen her for five years, and it was so, so, so wonderful to chat again. An hour wasn't enough, but it was still absolutely marvelous. Also marvelous was that the kids were totally worn out after all of this adventure, and they slept 90 percent of the way home.


The last day my dad was here, we took the little ones to the museum and had fun playing with some cool new exhibits. All in all, it was another fabulous visit from my dad. Come again soon!

04 November 2018

Slice of Life


Hi. Here I am again, several months down the line, so a lot has happened since I last posted! The older girls have been in school for a few months, so my days are fairly quiet at home with Jacob, Hazel, and Evan. (As quiet as life gets with a vibrant, crazy two year old, anyway.) Evan is five months old and most decidedly not a newborn now, which is horribly rude, but also lots of fun because he's so friendly and sweet. Really, I couldn't ask for more a more chill, easygoing baby. And his smiles just light up the room. He's rolling everywhere and chewing on everything and even sitting up.


Oh, I just love that little guy. I could eat him up. I kiss him all day long and can't get enough, and I'm not the only one--he's absolutely the most popular person in the house. The kids are all so incredibly good with him. Madeline and Violet are both very confident taking care of him, and Jacob and Hazel love to hold or talk to him. Evan always rewards them with an incredible smile. It's adorable how happy he is when the kids get home from school. He's for sure used to a lot of noise and chaos and can't imagine his life any other way.


Violet made Evan a little pillow fort the other day and got him tucked in all cozy. I love that he's smiling specifically for her in this picture!


One really fun thing this fall is that Jacob started preschool two days a week. He's doing a nature class and absolutely LOVES being a preschool kid. Two of his friends are in the class, which is exciting for him, and it's great to watch him make more friends and have the whole experience of being such a big kid. He recently turned five. FIVE! That's really hard for me to believe because he was our first baby who was born here. For the first time I actually have friends and ward members who have known one of my kids from the time that he was brand new until basically kindergarten age; it's just wild. And he's a ton of fun. Constantly reading and telling me cool facts, but also full of enthusiasm and energy.

22 July 2018

Welcome, Evan!


Surprise--we have another baby! He's actually already two months old, so this news isn't exactly hot off the press. But he still feels like a very new and fun and ADORABLE part of our family. We named him Evan David, and he was born on May 21st at 10:38 p.m. He was 7 pounds 7 ounces and 20 inches long. Everything went smoothly for both of us.


Evan is a super sweet, super easygoing little baby. If he cries, he's hungry or tired. Other than that he just sleeps, looks around, and acts cute. The kids are all obsessed with him and love to hold him and help out. My mom was here when he was born, which was amazing. It was really helpful to have her already on site so things were a little less crazy with childcare when I went to the hospital. And of course she is always amazingly helpful after I come home with the new babe.


The way things worked out, we had the kids meet him one or two at a time. That was fun because they were able to have a little more one-on-one time with the baby. It was so sweet to see their excitement. Madeline was the first to meet him. She is so good with him and always ready to help out.


Dave picked Violet up from school a couple hours early to bring her over to the hospital. This girl is my baby whisperer. She will do anything for Evan. She's very confident bouncing him, feeding him, burping him, helping him fall asleep, or doing pretty much anything that involves him.


Hazel couldn't stop squeezing Evan when they met. I think the first thing she said was, "Tiny came out!" Followed by, "Aw, Tiny so little and cute!" (The kids named the baby Tiny when they found out we were expecting.) She's very helpful with him, but let's just say it's not quite as helpful as when the older kids help out--it involves a lot of getting in his face and telling me that he's awake. Yep, he sure is. Sometimes she calls him "that baby" in a sweet way, like, "I really love that baby!" or "Where's that baby?"


All my boys together for the first time. Before Evan was born, Jacob went around telling everyone, "I have THREE sisters and NO brothers and I'm gonna have a real brother!" Dreams really do come true. He loves to hold him or just lie next to him and rub his soft little head. They're going to be a great brother team.


Oh, what a little snuggle bug! Looking at these hospital pictures is making me miss that magical first day of having a baby. There's nothing better than meeting your baby for the first time! And let's be honest, it was really really nice not to be pregnant anymore! I had a much harder pregnancy this time around. Worth it obviously, but I'd rather be on this side of the journey.


Family of seven, woohoo!

08 April 2018

Snapshot of Hazel at Age Two


This picture right here is the essence of Hazel. She's such a ray of sunshine in our family and for pretty much anyone who meets her, and she's always ready to do something physically daring. She loves to make a grand entrance and shout, "Ta-da!" when she does something cool or even just sticks her head into a room. I'm always impressed by how much I enjoy the peace and quiet when she's in her room snoozing, and how much I love the vibrancy and energy she immediately radiates as soon as she wakes up. The contrast is so stark and reminds me how much we need this little girl in our lives. She's a fairly new two year old, and she lets pretty much everyone know that as soon as she sees them: "I two! Hazel two!"


I also love Jacob's face in this picture. He had just realized that Hazel was fully planning to follow him up this tricky twisty climbing ladder and was horrified: "Stop, Hazel! This is too dangerous for you! Please stop!" He takes good care of her and couldn't possibly be a better big brother, and she is willing to follow him pretty much anywhere he goes. They are totally devoted to each other and are having so much fun together these days. I love our relatively quiet days at home as a threesome while the big kids are at school. I haven't been full of fun and excitement over the past eight months while I'm growing their baby brother (always sooooo tired), but we still have a good time. And they are so pleasant to take on outings.


Hazel's also our family comedian (see her fake mad face above). She has always been very funny, but she's really coming into her own now that she has so many words at her disposal. A couple of months ago she started talking up a storm, and it's fun to hear her string sentences together and make connections and try to participate in family jokes. Jacob has been really enjoying a joke book lately, and the other day Hazel came in holding the book (as if she were actually reading it) and said, "Mommy, who there? Who there Mommy?" She wanted me to take the knock-knock joke from there, but she knew exactly when to say, "Orange who?" and when she should laugh hysterically. I love that she did it with no prompting from me; just her own experience observing the kids and what we all talk about.


And I also love her lips in this picture. "I jail, Mommy! I in jail!" I think the jail part was Jacob's inspiration, but she's always happy to join in with any pretend play.

Anyway, Hazel at age two is completely delightful. She's a whirlwind, and you have to really keep an eye on her these days or she's doing SOMETHING that I don't want her to be doing, but she's so adorable and fun. She loves reading books and singing and playing baby dolls and zooming cars around the floor. She loves binkies and blankies and clomping around in other people's shoes and taking off her diaper when it's "soggy, Mommy." She loves playing outside and jumping on the trampoline and trying to be one of the big kids. She dislikes getting her clothes wet and strips them off if even a drop of water gets on them. She makes me crazy by dismantling my entire purse to find any gum or candy (which I no longer keep there, but that's no deterrent). She has made a very smooth (and early, for us) transition from crib to toddler bed thanks to her insistence on climbing out of her crib at all hours. She loves to snuggle up in my lap no matter what I'm doing. And she gives the best hugs and kisses and loves around. Thanks for being mine, Hazel.